Journey
The journey through grief is a windy road. The twists and turns continue throughout our lives. When the loss is new, the pain is excruciating.
I remember standing outside and looking up at the sky and pleading for Adam to come back… pleading for him to reveal himself. Where did he go? I saw him in the eagles soaring, the rabbits, the reflection of sunlight on the water. Every drop of nature reflected Adam to me. The air seemed to form tiny crystals and I saw him in them. I felt the breeze like his breath. I believed in all of these manifestations and they comforted me.
The pain eased. It now comes in the form of a wave… unexpected reminders that stir the embers. Sometimes a rogue wave will hit me and I call out to him. The shower is a great place for this… the sound of my cry disguised by the running water. Emerging to blow dry and dress… tears washed away for the moment.
The worst part of grief as the years pass is the missing. Missing his voice, his skin, his laughter and all of the traits that were uniquely Adam’s.
I am dredging today – because tomorrow I walk for suicide prevention and I am remembering. I will see the sorrow on the faces of the other survivors and they will see mine. I will remember Adam. My beautiful son, who left this earth too soon.
Remember
Drowned in a Stream of Prescriptions
This story is so similar to the events that occurred in Adam’s suicide. It is a cautionary tale of abuse of “study drugs”.
The story of Richard Fee, an athletic, personable college class president and aspiring medical student, highlights widespread failings in the system through which five million Americans take medication for A.D.H.D., doctors and other experts said.
Read the full article: http://nyti.ms/14HVNmU
Ask for Help!!!
When 7-year-old John Murray Jr. learns that the “s” word on an Army Suicide Prevention poster stands for “suicide,” he kneels down next to a table at Fox Army Health Center at Redstone Arsenal, AL and writes one big word at a time on each sticky note: ASK…… FOR….. HELP !!! as a reminder for Army people to ask for help (when contemplating suicide) and punctuates the note with five exclamation points.Read the Story Here: http://1.usa.gov/WSWkfo
60 Days Later
This is a poignant yet sad video.
